#belief

Belief

By J. N. C. Dandison

I have sown

I have worked

I have not slept when I ought to work 

But I have failed to reap.

Forces beyond my control have made it 

impossible for my Harvest to come in.

I despair. 

I lack, 

I hunger,

 I starve.

I ponder because I have prayed

I have praised 

I worship and serve the Almighty

I have cried

I have sought

I have recounted the promises 

of the Lord to me

But I still sink.

I ask myself, how long can my faith carry me.

I have hoped but it gets worse.

Have always made myself to smile through it all,

but as it worsens it becomes a burden to smile.

I don't have the strength to smile anymore.

I ponder, but I refuse to fall.

I kneel because I can't stand anymore 

I frown and resign myself to fate

I tell the Almighty that, 

if this is what he wishes for me,

let it be because I had promised him

I will never serve another God.

I just breathe and exist

Not caring what will happen next.

Then it all begins to change.

I start seeing favours, 

unsolicited goodwill, Answers and the light.

I smile, I thank God, I praise him.

I smile, because I conquered,

I broke but did not fall.

I kept my promise

I survived.

I conquered because I didn't choose

the easy way out,

to sin or compromise myself.

HALLELUJA!